Thoughts

I am in a bad mood.
Cause I can't foresee the impact from the decision I had make.
Cause I can't foresee what will happen next.
One day I might see the impact. Feel the impact. But I can't go back to the past neither.

Do not regret.
Don't ever regret on what you had done.
Don't ever do the thing you will regret one day.
I tell myself.
But how I know whether or not I will regret? How?
Unpredictable.
No matter how many time I think. Reconsider. And reconsider again.
Finally I make up my mind. And i did it. Then I think. Why don't I do it the other way round.
Funny huh. Enough. It is more than enough.
Why not I just stay where I am. Wait and see.
Unfortunately I am impatient.

How many decision we have to make in our lifetime.

There is one day. I realized. Even if i regret. There is nothing can be done.
So. Accept it. And believe that there must be a reason. A reason for me to go through this.

After all of the above. Okay i don't regret. But i don't know whether it is the right choice.

That day my sis asked me. If she chose not to further her studies in Singapore. Will all the things be different now? I answered 'Yes, definitely.'
Definitely. I believe so.
Let me see.
I think the biggest decision I had made in my life until now is choosing to go over Singapore to further studies.
It not really what I wanted at the point of time.
Think back. First few months in Singapore is really a hard time for me.
'Problem based learning' really kills me. And i missed him so much.
One thing for sure. Went Singapore. Changed me. Changed my life.
In a good or bad way. I changed.
Yes. I changed. And changing still.